when I say I can’t remember anything

I mean it true

feeling the backlash

like Kanye dissing Jews

I wish I remember you

I wish I felt the pain

I wish I reminisced how you brightened up my day

like a cat I was stray

until you gave me place

I constantly commit suicide

reborn into life with a new sight

reborn into life with no past bite

to feel my nans life would’ve been a blissful goodbye

for my friends from back then to miss me

reach out to me

affirm I was there

affirm the love we shared

and no one cares

sometimes I hope one day I hope they throw their arm

and can’t reach me because

I’m dead

and I’ve always said I’m sorry

been fucking submissive

submitted till I’m doubtful of my own existence

persistent for what ?

by ness star